So, this morning, I was pondering on my last two posts and thinking some more about the living life question. Before I share some thoughts, I want to clarify (in case you don't know me well)--I tend to be a bit of an overachiever and set my standards pretty high on most things. Take for example the other day. It was my turn to bring goodies to our women's lifeserve group. I was craving caramel apples. Since I worked all day and limited on time, I could have purchased prepared caramel dip and sliced apples....but, no, I went home and made homemade caramel dip and sliced the apples. (Yes, I think the homemade tastes better, but really-- I could have saved some time and stress.)(Plus, I burned the first batch, so I had to make a second batch.)
Today, I found myself asking the question...is this moment enough? Can going to work, making supper, cleaning up the house, taking a walk with my husband, driving my daughter to dance and writing on my blog, be enough? Do we always have to be pushing for something more? This could be a critical question for those of us who may be experiencing survivor's guilt. We think--God saved our lives, now I must do something or be something to make my life worthwhile. But, maybe, just maybe...we are doing what is required of us? Maybe just being kind to our loved ones, coworkers, people on the street is enough?...Maybe just getting up in the morning and attempting to put a smile on our face is enough? Maybe this is what Paul meant when he said in his letter to the Philippians "I am content in all things."
So, tonight finds me still striving and dreaming, yet at the same time...with contentment and peace--knowing that I am right where I am supposed to be!