Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Relearning the Dance Steps!

I remember the day my oldest daughter said to me, "Mom, you no longer have cancer--so, your caring bridge needs to go...if you want to write, start a blog."  I had to look up the definition of blog as I had no idea what a blog was or how to do it.  Slowly, I found my way into bloggersville.  I found myself in love with this new community.  I found joy and encouragement.  Thus began my life after cancer...

At first blogging was so easy.  It was fun and enjoyable to write about every day happenings in the life of a cancer survivor.  Then, I began to look at writing a bit more seriously...attending a few conferences, subscribing to many writing blogs, reading about writing, belonging to a critique group.  All these have been great and wonderful things, however, as I learned more, I began to realize how ill prepared and uneducated I am (in the field of writing.)  I started worrying about dangling participles and action verbs vs passive verbs.  I found myself asking the question, is someone cringing at my lack of proper grammer? The worry...the lack of time...the lack of learning...

The quest for doing it right...had me heading back to the pit of...

Because I had been learning about building a platform and that you need to give your readers something concrete, I started blogging on Time2Live Tuesday and Walking with Wellness Wednesday.  But we all know that my ability to keep on task was limited at best.  While I enjoy doing these blog posts, I missed the authentic and real connection with those of you who read this blog.  When I was in Montana last month, I spent much time praying and pondering, asking myself some tough questions:

Why do I blog?
Should I keep blogging?
Do I have the time to blog?
What is my purpose of blogging?
Does blogging really matter?

I can't really say I have the answers for all my questions, but this is what I am hearing so far:

YES to blogging....I love it...I love the community!  I miss it...and I am going to try and make more time for it! (And I am going to accept that it is better to write and fail, than not write at all!)

YET...it is time to change it up a bit, especially as I don't like the direction my blog has taken.  I am not a scheduled person.  (So writing only two days a week on a focus topic isn't exactly what I am good at...) I want to write about the unique steps that I am taking as a survivor, hoping that my steps will provide hope and encouragement to others on this journey.  I want to be authentic!  I want to share with others how God is working in and through my life. 

So, thank you dear blog readers for dancing the steps to this new dance with me...let the adventures begin!


KarenG said...

I think your questions about blogging are valid, ones that every blogger needs to be asking regularly so that the blog stays vibrant and valid, not stale and dull. You mentioned Caring Bridge, which I think is a wonderful service. Glad your outcome has moved you beyond it, however, into blogland!

melody-mae said...

I look forward to whatever way your blog takes me! :) I am here, no matter what! Good luck sweetheart from one survivor to another!

Susan Stilwell said...

I'm so glad you're continuing to blog, and can't wait to see how it takes shape!!

Julia Tomiak said...

Kim, I too think you ask very valid questions. Don't be discouraged about grammar & mechanics: you have something worthwhile to say, and that's the most important thing. Everything else will come. And blogging is a great way to learn! Keep it up!

Mary Aalgaard, Play off the Page said...

Continue to follow your heart.
And, Happy Birthday!

Play off the Page

Marie said...

Looking forward to following you in your new blogging direction Kim x