I remember the day my oldest daughter said to me, "Mom, you no longer have cancer--so, your caring bridge needs to go...if you want to write, start a blog." I had to look up the definition of blog as I had no idea what a blog was or how to do it. Slowly, I found my way into bloggersville. I found myself in love with this new community. I found joy and encouragement. Thus began my life after cancer...
At first blogging was so easy. It was fun and enjoyable to write about every day happenings in the life of a cancer survivor. Then, I began to look at writing a bit more seriously...attending a few conferences, subscribing to many writing blogs, reading about writing, belonging to a critique group. All these have been great and wonderful things, however, as I learned more, I began to realize how ill prepared and uneducated I am (in the field of writing.) I started worrying about dangling participles and action verbs vs passive verbs. I found myself asking the question, is someone cringing at my lack of proper grammer? The worry...the lack of time...the lack of learning...
Because I had been learning about building a platform and that you need to give your readers something concrete, I started blogging on Time2Live Tuesday and Walking with Wellness Wednesday. But we all know that my ability to keep on task was limited at best. While I enjoy doing these blog posts, I missed the authentic and real connection with those of you who read this blog. When I was in Montana last month, I spent much time praying and pondering, asking myself some tough questions:
Why do I blog?
Should I keep blogging?
Do I have the time to blog?
What is my purpose of blogging?
Does blogging really matter?
YES to blogging....I love it...I love the community! I miss it...and I am going to try and make more time for it! (And I am going to accept that it is better to write and fail, than not write at all!)
YET...it is time to change it up a bit, especially as I don't like the direction my blog has taken. I am not a scheduled person. (So writing only two days a week on a focus topic isn't exactly what I am good at...) I want to write about the unique steps that I am taking as a survivor, hoping that my steps will provide hope and encouragement to others on this journey. I want to be authentic! I want to share with others how God is working in and through my life.