Today, I visited a dear friend of mine while she was receiving her first chemotherapy treatment for breast cancer. Now, this isn't the first time I have visited others while they received their chemotherapy treatment...so, I was surprised by the reactions I experienced today. So surprised in fact, that I find myself needing to blog about it tonight.
Today found me sitting in "the other chair" at a local oncology center. The chair that sits next to the person who is receiving medications to eradicate any evidence of cancer from invading her life....ever again!
My first reaction was of incredible gratitude...some of the dearest people I know were all sitting in today's circle, offering encouragement and support to our dear friend who recently joined the " Survivor Sister Club." I am so grateful for this group of women...our individual cancer journey's give us a unique bond, our belief in a mighty God--give us our strength.
My second reaction was when I saw it....It being the red chemo in a syringe also known as the "Red Devil." Suddenly, I felt like time creeped back to 3 years ago when I was sitting in the other chair. As I watched the red liquid slowly make its way through the IV tubing, I could feel the nausea starting, soon followed by the familiar headache that often accompanied my chemo treatments. The "icky" feeling of chemo dripping in my veins came back with such a vengeance. Oh, how I wanted to flee! How can a person's body have such a physical reaction by just observing? The mind is amazing...and so powerful!
My third reaction came when I was leaving the infusion center and I looked back at the chair I had been sitting. I experienced an overwhelming sense of appreciation for those who sat in "the other chair" for me. Today gave me a new appreciation on the challenge of being the person in "the other chair." The struggle of watching someone you love experiencing sickness and pain. The desire to make their road a bit easier.
Tonight finds me giving praise and thanks to God...for the blessing of being able to sit in "the other chair!"
PS. please say a prayer for my friend...that her treatment side effects may be minimal.