Now, it is time to be a bit more honest with you...what I am going to share with you next, isn't exactly what I would call a "dream." But it is a direction that I feel being led to...after many months (okay, years) I took a huge step, which was prompted by whispers I could no longer run from. As I have mentioned previously, in October 2012,I joined Toastmasters. Two weeks ago, I had to give my first speech, the "ice breaker." This speech is a 4 to 6 minute speech about yourself. Shouldn't be that hard, should it? Seriously, I don't know what I was thinking when I joined this organization. It must have been the "chemo brain." I tell ya...I was so...nervous, I almost didn't show up to the meeting....that was until I remember my friend Jess's advice, "Kim--at times in life you have to fake it, until you make it!" So, I gave myself a good ol' pep talk and gave the speech. Yes, I was scared. Yes, I could have done and said some things better (clearer.) But you know what? I did it...and I was so proud of myself. Ever since I was diagnosed with cancer, when faced with fear...I ask myself the question "If you don't do it, will you regret it?" I knew that if I didn't do my speech, I would not only regret it, I would also feel like I let God down. You see...for reasons I can't fully explain, I know that He wants me to learn the skill of public speaking. So...I'm trusting and doing! (Even when I am afraid!)
PS. For those of you interested in Toastmasters--you should check it out. What an awesome organization and great group of individuals.
BONUS: Feb 11, 2009 found me walking into the chemotherapy room for the first time...four years later....here I am! And although today found me on the couch because of debilitating pain due to the barometric pressure being low (thankfully this only happens with major systems)--I celebrate the gift of healing!