Tuesday, August 30, 2011
2 ½ yrs later…
Interestingly enough...survivorship doesn't follow a check list either. Most days, cancer is tucked away in a nice little corner of my mind. That is until I hear of someone having a recurrence, admitted to hospice, or passed away. Along with grieving for the individuals, those days I find myself asking, “Why Me?” Why am I the lucky one? Sure, I still struggle with some painful side effects from the grueling treatment, but how come I am so blessed to not have cancer return, at least not yet?
Some things still don’t make sense, but one thing that does make sense is that I can say with confidence, “Thank you God for walking with me through cancer, because without You, I would have never discovered some very beautiful truths.”
Question of the day: If you are a survivor, have you ever experienced survivor’s guilt? If so, do you have any tips to share?
Friday, August 26, 2011
This week's word is Older.
Before cancer, I never really thought of getting older. After all, I was only 40. Getting older, is after all, for old people. It's amazing how perspective changes. Now, for me getting older, even one day older is a gift. A very, very precious gift.
I do think it is sad that our society focuses so much on youth, that we miss the blessing of the older generation. Since most of my nursing career I have worked with an older population, I have great respect for their wisdom and knowledge.
Today I was at a conference and one of the physicians who was speaking stated that many of us think our bodies don't move as well because we are older, in truth it is because we are less physical active than when we were younger. Lesson learned--MOVE IT or LOSE IT!! (Hmmm....good thing I purchased some new running shoes and inserts last night--I have been struggling with a bad case of planter fascities...so going to see if this remedy will help. I have the greatest desire to start running...)
Five minutes up...
Have a great weekend getting older!!
Friday, August 19, 2011
From The Gypsy Mama: "So, here’s the skinny: I keep thinking about writing and how often our perfectionism gets in the way of our words. And so a while back I figured, why not take 5 minutes and see what comes out: not a perfect post, not a profound post, just five minutes of focused writing.
No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation. Just painting with words. Finger-painting even.
For only five minutes.
I love that so many of you loved that idea too. So we gather here every Friday to compare our five minute masterpieces, in all their messy beauty. We just write, without worrying if it’s just right or not."
This weeks word is New....ready, set, go....
When I first heard the word New...I couldn't help but think that is a perfect word to describe life after cancer. Okay, not a perfect word, but possible a good word--if you are having a good day, that is...
Cancer survivors realize that every day is a new day with new possibilities. The challenge is our old ways can trip us up. The courage and strength we leaned on going through our treatment journey, often gets buried with day to day busyness of life.
To be honest this is something that has frustrated me, especially of late. I don't want to run the rat race of life. I want to live a joyous new life. I want to inspire and be inspired. I want to share and encourage. I want to share with others the promise of Hope Lives Now!
Hmmm, thinking of my time since diagnosis, I have had many new experiences: my first plane ride, my first trip alone, two out of town writer's conference, speaking with an editor, blogging, meeting awesome new people, and coordinating a support group.
Well, after trying this new experience of writing for five minutes, I am once again, refocused...ready and waiting for some new experiences!
If your interested in joining the 5 minute Fridays, please check out The Gypsy Mama!
Monday, August 15, 2011
As you may have guessed by my lack of blog entries, something is up. For some reason, time has been in short supply and my days seem to be flying. Mostly I have been doing good things, but I sure miss writing and connecting with my bloggersville friends.
I sit here and think about what to write, what to share...
The words which were once so easy, are hiding...
It reminds me of the awkward silence often experienced when we allow too much time and distance in relationships.
So, today I'll start with "HI!"
And we will see what tomorrow shall bring...
Monday, August 1, 2011
Breast Cancer Sisterhood.